its been nearly a month since i last posted here, and not a lot has happened. i've been doing some gardening as a way to get outside more. so far i've planted peas, potatos, and corn. and some carrots at my nanas place. its been getting a lot nicer out, and it doesn't get dark until around 9. i hung out with some of my friends i hadn't seen in a while, but not for as long as i wanted.
the moon is really bright right now. i was considering driving somewhere and maybe practicing some skateboarding, but i'm too tired at the moment.
i've been playing a lot more tf2 lately. the bot problem sucks, but the game is still as fun as ever. maybe i get lucky, but i don't get into many servers with bots. too bad i can't convince many of my friends to play. on the topic of gaming, i guess e3 is happening soon. looking foward to cringing at it. the gaming industry is in such a bad state, so i doubt i'll be interested in whatevers annouced. most triple a games that come out these days are either boring, unfinished or borderline clones of already existing games.
today i updated the art section with a different layout, but thats the only major update i've done since the last update. still don't feel too good with my drawings, i want to draw something more interesting than "character standing or sitting around" but good, original ideas are hard to come up with, let alone drawing them. developing a cool artstyle is also a challenge. someday i want to draw/write legit comics, but i need to learn to draw before that.
it's getting late so i'm going to write more tomorrow.
i did a lot of work on this site today, especially the about section which has a more compact layout now. i have to optimize it for phones at some point. i also drove into the city for the first time in like half a year and it wasn't as scary is i thought it would be
college is pretty much done for the term, but i've got another class starting next week. these last few weeks have left my mental state probably the worst its been in a long time. this summer i'm going to try and learn as much as i can on my own.
its finals week, so i'm busy and tired. first exam went alright, but todays might have failed me the course. i have another tomorrow, and i don't know how thats going to go. i got a bit of time to work on the website a bit, changing a few assets and working on the "cool links" section. when exams are over, i'm going to try and reformat the site a bit. thinking of puting the menu bar on the left side of the screen and drawing up some assets. the current setup i have right now is kinda boring, and i mostly set it up that way because its easier to make it look good on mobile.
i added the trashzone, where the trash goes
gonna write down all my memories so i don't forget
youtube removing dislikes is probably one of the worst things they've done in a while, which is saying something. they say they're just "testing a new feature" while removing one of the most important features of the website. without the dislikes, its going much harder to tell if a video is worth watching or if a video is bad or even a scam. youtube always claims that they bring these changes because of "creator feedback", but i have yet to see a single creator support this. its been pretty obvious that youtube has prioritized corporations and the mainstream media over individual creators for a while, and this update is just another way to protect these corporations
its hard to believe that youtube used to have "broadcast yourself" as a slogan. as time goes on, youtube becomes less "broadcast yourself" and more "broadcast television". youtube is trying to become like cable tv, when one of the best things about the site was that it was an alternative to cable tv. it was a website where literally any individual could make content and becoming successful was a realistic goal. now that youtube only promotes news channels, late night talk shows, and corporate media, the chances of even being seen on youtube have only gotten worse. the only content that makes it on youtube these days is corporate, cookie-cutter, dumbed-down, sterilized videos that are produced solely to make as much ad revenue as possible
creative, genuine youtube content still exists, but its so overshadowed by garbage, disposable content that youtube promotes that finding it is harder than ever. the worst thing about it is that there's no alternative to youtube. sites like vimeo and dailymotion exist but literally who uses that. google essentially has a monopoly on online video hosting, so they're basically free to screw over creators and users however they want
college is wrecking me as usual. i've got a test on monday that i'm not ready for, but hopefully after i'll be able to breathe a bit. today i planted some pea plants, because i want to learn to garden. it'll be a good skill to have when civilization collapses. this year i'll be growing peas, carrots, potatoes, and corn. i played and finished a game called "omori" about a week ago, the first single-player game i've played in a long time. the art style is great, the music slaps, and the story is an emotional rollercoaster. it's the second (maybe third) game to make me cry, even though i got the "good" ending.
wow its been a while since the last update. its been pretty busy. i had so much to do last week, but its slowed down a bit. not much happening now except for school. i've been looking into what's involved in the electrical trade. the more i sit at this computer, the more i realize that i might not want to do this as a job. most of my hobbies involve a computer already, and staring at a screen for at least 8 hours a day on top of that doesn't sound too appealing. i'm not giving up on this program though, it'll be good to finish it and maybe get some contacts out of it. school might be reopening in september, which honestly at this point i'd rather stay remote. i dread having to drive in morning traffic again.
i'm also going to have to start looking for a job for the summer. all i want is time to do want i really want to do. i've been trying to practice drums a bit every day, along with guitar. i get pretty discouraged with guitar. its been nearly a year since i picked it up, and i feel like should be a lot more competent. going days at a time without playing definitely doesn't help. i started playing a game called omori a couple days ago. the first single player game i've played in a long time. i'm only like 4 hours in and its really cool so far (and kind of depressing).
things be expensive
had my first midterm today which could have gone better, but i still passed and thats what matters. my brain was kinda fried after that, so i didn't do much today. i'm working on redesigning my mascot (totally not a fursona), because his design is pretty boring.
why do humans have to sleep 8 hours a day to function, its such a waste of time. i like sleeping but if i had another 8 hours in a day i would be literally unstoppable
soon i'll do some proper write-ups of topics that i have thoughts on, when i have time
lots to say with no way to say it
midterms are coming up, and i don't know if i'm ready. the material shouldn't be too hard, but the time limits are really short. i get that its to prevent people from spending too much time looking up stuff, but its still extremely short given the amount of questions we're getting. the next week is probably gonna suck. i did a bit more art recently, and i like how it turned out. i want to figure out and stick to a consistent style at some point. learning how to draw things that aren't just animal people is also on my to-do list. speaking of art, i need to add some features to the art section, and to actually make that music section thats been empty since i made this site
guess i'm never seeing daft punk live
making music is something i want to do, but i've got no idea where to start. i don't even know what kind of music i'd want to do. probably some form of punk or experimental rock. one of the biggest challenges would be making my own unique sound. i don't want to make stuff that sounds like everything else, but its hard when it seems like everythings been done before. also i still kind of suck on guitar, and i freeze whenever i try to play for anyone. and if i did try to write lyrics i don't know what i'd write about. with practice, obviously i could get good but its hard with school taking all my time.
someday i'll eat so many salt and vinegar chips that i'll straight up die
i deleted basically all my unnecessary stuff off my phone, including most my social media apps. i kept snapchat and instagram only because i have a couple chats on there that i can't access on the computer. sometimes i consider selling my current phone and getting a flip phone instead, but i'm too used to the luxuries that the newest phones have (maps, car bluetooth, touchscreens).
its amazing how much time i waste
today i changed my car tire because it went flat for some reason. kind of annoying, but a good learning experience. yesterday i hung out with my friends, went to mcdonalds, and got high. the highlight of my break so far. my sleep schedule is pretty messed, and i've been too tired to do much. not looking forward to going back. feeling: alright
i was going to make pancakes today but i'm out of oil. feeling: pain
one more day until freedom, for a week. i've got a lot due tomorrow, and i don't know if i'll finish it all. considering staying up all night. its supposed to snow tomorrow so maybe the power will go out and i'll get some extra time.
holy crap its february already. reading break is almost here, which is cool. not much happening right now, just continuing to exist. i got maybe 4 hours of sleep last night, and i dreamt something really weird, but i forgot what it was.
updated the art section to be more responsive. also did a bit of optimizing for phone screens. idk if its just me, but css on this site takes forever to update.
bought a skateboard like a week ago and it arrived today. i've maybe ridden a skateboard maybe twice in my life so i don't know what i'm doing. i'll just be practicing in my garage for now because i don't want to publicly embarrass myself. i was planning on getting a lot of work done today, but i was pretty distracted by the whole gamestop/dogecoin thing. nice to see wall street getting rekt.
did a bit more work here today. hopefully i'll get some free time this weekend. i'm going to the corner store and getting snacks rn
college is a bit busy, so working on this website is going pretty slow. its still pretty barebones, but progress has been made. more coming soon
today i began making this website. this is the first "update", but i don't know if i'll keep it up. i have a lot of ideas i want to implement into this thing, but i'll have to spend more time learning how. also i'm getting busy with college, which should take priority.